Wednesday, December 2

back to life, back to reality

coming back to work after having such a wonderful time being a stay at home mommy was very difficult and frankly a cruel joke ("here, have a baby, fall in love with him, have a great time, then leave him..."). It is one of those times you remind yourself WHY you are doing what you are doing. Anyway, here is how the first week back has gone:

Monday was like a special outing! I had so much to catch up on (9 weeks worth) that the day flew by. Plus when you are just "makin' memories" pumping on the bathroom floor of your office, that takes away a good 20 minutes a session. It was like I was playing "work" (although who in their right mind would play work?! crazy people...and who pretends to pump at work. dear Lord, i hope no one.)

Tuesday- 8:15 i get to work, 9:00am i get a text from my WONDERFUL HUSBAND who has so graciously dedicated his Tuesdays to working from home to watch our little one. This is what it said:

then i cried more

and i cried some more.

then i finally gathered myself with box of tissues in hand....and then cried some more.

called my mom at lunch and cried some more.

i get a call from my friend Vanessa and then cried some more. Sheesh.

ROOKIE MISTAKE Matt. (but i love you so so so so so so so much...)

Wednesday i only cried once. Thursday got misty eyed but held it together. today i have a sniffly and runny nose little boy so i really wanted to stay there with my little guy, (especially when i layed him back down after feeding him and he sniffled and smiled at me) but no tears as of yet and my work day is almost over.

So overall, i would say it has been a success. (???really? i would say that? Who am i?)

But lets be honest: WHO would want to leave a sweet punkin face like this:

5 comments:

the deKorne family said...

Nobody!!! I'm so sorry...praying for you! You are a great mama and get an extra jewel for the bathroom floor pumping. :)

Shell said...

What an adorable little baby face!

And can I just say how gorgeous those pics are in your blog header? Love it!

mymcmlife said...

Aw, Jenna. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. That sounds like it would be really hard. But it probably makes the weekends really sweet, right? Hang in there girl. I'll try to remember to pray for you through the work week!

noel said...

man, he's the cutest. i love reading your blog because i can just hear you in every sentence i read. example : ROOKIE MISTAKE matt, haha.

Beth Clark said...

I wish I had words of wisdom. I just want you to know that you're an amazing Mother AND I really believe the desires of your heart will be worked out completely. Just keep believing! Your precious son knows who you are and the highlights of his day will be when he sees you come home. No one can replace what you give him...that's a special gift God has given a mama and her boy!
WIsh I could be more present for you. I hope you never doubt how much I love and admire you. You and Matt are in our thoughts and prayers on a regular basis!! Big hugs my friend. You're doing a great job!!!!